Let It Go

When is it time to let go and when is it time to keep pressing on? You truly never know what life has in store for you - or better yet, what God has in store for you. When you lose something or someone dear to you - do you let it go or do you press on until you get it back? I don't have the answer to that. I wish I did because I have lost someone so dear to me and its tearing me up inside. I'm sure those closest to me can see it but I've tried to keep my head held high. But at night, when its just me and the stillness - I'm broken. I'm troubled with doubt and confusion and hurt and anger....and just wish I'd wake up from the bad dream and everything be okay again. But its not a bad dream...its my life - and its real.

When I first lost my dear friend this was sent to me....yet I'm having a hard time embracing it and letting go. How do you just "let go" of someone and something so dear? How do you say "okay God, I give it to you" when it seemed so right? This isn't the first time something like this has happened and though you would think it would get easier - it is not. It is sad and depressing and is breaking me to the core. But here it is...maybe this time something will click and I can accept what has been lost.



Letting Go



There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this - When people can walk away from you: let them walk!

I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. You destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The Bible said that, they came out from us that it might be manifest that they were not for us. For had they been for us, no doubt they would have continued with us. 1 John 2:19

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you cannot make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean they are a bad person, it just means that their part in the story is over.

And you've got to know when a persons part of the story is over so you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when its dead.

You've got to know when its over. Let me tell you something...I've got the gift of good-bye. Its the 10th spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. Its not that I'm hateful, its that I'm faithful and I know that whatever God means for me to have, He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it.

Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...

Let it Go!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains...

Let it Go!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back and see your worth...

Let it Go!

If someone has angered you...

Let It Go!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of anger or revenge...

Let It Go!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...

Let It Go!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs and talents...

Let It Go!

If you have a bad attitude...

Let It Go!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...

Let It Go!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...

Let It Go!

If you're struggling with the healing of a broken relationship...

Let It Go!

If you're trying to help someone that won't even try to help themselves...

Let It Go!

If you're feeling stressed and depressed...

Let It Go!

If there is a situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take yours hands off of it", then you need to...

Let it Go!

The Battle Is The Lords!

Ask And You Shall Receive....

When we pray do we actually expect an answer from God? Do we actually mean what we're asking? How do we react when He does answer and its not in the way we quite expected. I'll be the first to admit that I may get my feelings hurts. I may pout and be a little pissy for a while. But when I actually sit and look at what He's doing - its worth it. Shouldn't we know He always has our best interest at hand?

Recently I've prayed about something and I haven't actually gotten an answer. But I keep telling myself - Regardless of the outcome He is in control. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 Maybe God is waiting to see what I'll do in the waiting period. Will I get impatient and try to work it out in my strength or will I trust in His plans? Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10).

Happy Mother's Day

I'd just like to say a quick Happy Mother's Day to my Mother and all the other moms out there. Through the years my mom has been loving, even when I may not have been most agreeable. Thank you, Mom. I'll always love you!

Our House, Is a Very Very Very Fine House

The house has been painted and it looks great. Just thought I'd share!

Kentucky Derby Party 2009

So this past Saturday my Sunday School class had a Kentucky Derby Party...so much fun. I was the only person that actually "dressed" the part, but I didn't care. If I was going to wear a big fancy hat I was going to dress up too. Anyway, here are a few picture of our day.

Happy Birthday to My Best Friend, JULIE!!!

I won't tell them how old you are.

Tea Anyone?

So yesterday was the great Anti-Tax Tea Party...well several around the country were held. Since yesterday was a complete blur I didn't get to see how it was received. This morning I read this article: Anti-tax "tea parties" being held across the U.S. and one part stood out to me.

Before I go any farther I really want to ask a question....Does anyone LISTEN to what Obama says? I'm really being serious here because what he SAYS and what he DOES rarely coincides yet so many are fooled into believing this man is for "the people". And yet everyday I get viewed as a raciest or bitter because I don't agree with this man. Does anyone actually SEE what horrible things he has done since he has been in office? Everyone, including Obama, wants to put the blame on Bush (BTW, Bush warned of a falling economy in 2002- but no one remembers that, hummm) for all the bad that is going on instead of taking responsibility and owning it.

Okay so this is the part that stood out to me the most:
Obama acknowledged the protests. "For too long, we've seen taxes used as a wedge to scare people into supporting policies that increased the burden on working people instead of helping them live their dreams," he said. "That has to change, and that's the work that we've begun."

Did I just read that? "that's the work that we've begun." WHAT? Why does he think these people are HAVING these tea parties? Not because of the great changes that have taken place but because of the HORRIBLE CHANGES!!!!!!!!! But so many people are sitting back and thinking he totally agrees. WAKE UP PEOPLE! QUIT BEING SHEEP! LISTEN FOR YOURSELF! The proof is in the results....and I hate to break it it you - MY GRANDCHILDREN WILL BE PAYING FOR OBAMA'S 'CHANGE'.

I'm disgusted.

I'm So Excited And I Just Can't Hide It...

I have officially been acceptted into the dental hygiene program!!!! YAY me! I'm so glad I'm not going to have to take other measures to get in. The honest way is always the best! (hahaha)

I will be starting in the fall. I know the next few months will probably fly by since I have so many things I need to get taken care of. Thats the way things go isn't it?

Anyway to all who have prayed for me - thank you. Please continue to pray that I get the loan money I need to live on while in school.

2012....Will You Ever Get Here?

After the "President's" remark about his bowling abilities looking like the "Special Olympics or something" - that is my exact thought. In all fairness I have to admit....I've said things like that a time or two. I've even called people retarded. BUT I'm never going to run for President (as many give a sign of relief).

When will we get someone in office that has some class? When will we get someone in office that truly has a heart for all the American People? When will we get a President in office that cares more about the welfare of our country than picking his bracket for the NCAA?

Am I the only person that feels this way? Of course there are those of you that feel sorry for poor Obama and think .... ' he's a regular guy too you know'.... I hate to point this out but it looks as if I must. If he wanted to be a regular guy he shouldn't have ran for President. If he wanted to be a regular guy he should have continued to be a community organizer. But the fact of the matter is he DID run for President of the United States and is now one of the most powerful people in the world....HE IS NOT A REGULAR GUY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so tired of hearing people make excuses for him. If thats all he's good for is giving people reason to make up excuses then why in GOD'S NAME DID YOU VOTE FOR HIM?!?!?!?!?! (ummm, yes, I said YOU because I my friend did NOT vote for him - I still have the sign in my yard to prove it!!!) Don't we all have better things to do with our time than make us excuses????

And my last little rant will be this....For those of you that continue to think I'm a bitter b*^%@# - I'm just wondering - what would you have said had President Bush made the same remark???? Do we have a Double Standard for a trillion dollars Alex????

Is It Me....

Or is everyone getting married???

After many, many weeks I figured it was time to make a post. Life has been busy. School has taken over my life and I am officially wore out. I will definitely be glad when this semester is over. I finished Anatomy and Physiology I with an "A" and have started A&P II. I sent off my Dental Hygiene application and have already been called back for an interview (pray I do well). And with a little kick in the rear, hopefully my Nutrition Instructor will get his act together!

But in the middle of all my hustle and bustle I have found one common thread among me....everyone is getting married. I can't tell you the number of people in my singles Sunday school class that are "tying the knot". Even Jane Green recently got married (Congrats Jane!!!).

Despite every effort, I'm starting to feel a bit of pressure as I inch (faster and faster though I try to drag my feet) toward the big 3-0. The fact of the matter is there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING I can do to change the fact that I'm single. And the one question that keeps going through my mind is...."Are you even ready to get married?" I have no idea what that answer might even be. Yes, I'd love to find the perfect man for me....but even if he were to show up tomorrow would I be ready? Would I be ready in a month? Or six months? Or even a year? Is anyone ever really ready at all for marriage?

Even though I'm about to be 30 I sometimes feel as if I'm still a little girl. I feel as if I have a million things I have to and want to accomplish before anyone steps into my little picture. I feel as if there is so mach that God has to work in me before anyone steps on the scene.

So am I ready? Nah. Despite all the pressure I put on myself I feel this time is for me. Lord, knows once I do finally get married I'll never be able to say that again. So in the words of Gregory - 2009 is Mine!

Why Do We Wait Until It's Too Late?

This week a friend of mine lost her father. He has been sick for quite some time, but she could never be prepared for the impact of his death. Last night she read me a letter she wrote to him after he passed away. In it she said things that she never said to him in person. Things she felt were too cheesy to voice. Things she felt he wouldn't understand. Emotions from the heart that really can't be put into words.

Hearing her words got me thinking. Why do we wait until it's too late? Why do we not say the things that really need to be said? Why do we not express the love that overflows our hearts? Why do we not express the emotions we hold inside regardless of how difficult it may be?

Is it because of pride? Is it because of not being able to find the words? Or possibly it is because of past hurts, that we can't get past long enough to express the joy, the love, the admiration, the honor we feel for our loved one's.

Whatever it is, I wish it weren't so. I wish we all didn't wait until it was too late to say the things that we hold under lock and key deep in our hearts. I'll be the first to admit my guilt for not speaking the treasures I keep hidden in my heart. But today, listening to my friend read the words she could never express to her dad, it makes me want to try to move past my fears to ensure I don't regret saying the things that need to be said before it's too late.

Now Working For the Food Network....

Last night The Southern Gentleman (who Julie and I are thinking of naming Big Papa) took Julie and I to Ruth Chris. It was our first time there. Being big fans of BR Prime we weren't too sure what to expect, but we were pleasantly surprised. Big Papa seems to know everyone in every social circle. He introduced us to people that probably didn't care to know either one of us, but it made for an interesting night. He then started telling everyone we were both from the Food Network and that created a big laugh. Of course there were a few eyebrows raised, but most knew he was pulling their leg.

Both Julie and I got the special that included a small fillet and stuffed lobster with sides of potatoes and mushrooms. Can you say DELICIOUS? Then Big Papa forced us to try the banana pudding. It was baked in a pastry shell and the top was caramelized. Very delish.

Anyway, just wanted to give a big thank you to Big Papa. Your kindness and hospitality know no end. We love you!

Diary of a Mad Massage Therapist Vol.4

14. Refrain from propositioning your massage therapist! We're not flattered. It's not cute. It's not funny. It actually makes you look like a complete idiot and we're going to tell EVERYONE we know what an ass you are.

What would you do if someone actually said:
"Come on Texas Girl, don't be shy - Make a man out of me - I'm a big tipper"?
(for those of you who do not know...I grew up in Texas)

Well those were the exact words that came out of the mouth of a current client (aka moron!) of mine.

Do men actually believe that all women want to handle their private parts? Do they think that if given the opportunity we would just be honored to 'service' (for a lack of better words) them? If I didn't think I would have lost my job I probably would have punched him in the nether region. I wanted to let him know that he wasn't in the Best Little Whore House in Texas but in a legitimate spa and salon. I wanted to ask him to hold that thought while I went and talked to his wife. Quite honestly, I wanted to chop his dick off. Nonetheless (believe it or not), I kept my cool, ignored his 'offer' and got his ass out of my room as quickly as possible.

So for those of you that think its okay to proposition a massage therapist please refrain. I promise there will be therapists that will not be as nice. (And learn a little of bit of respect while you're at it!)

Callaway Gardens - Pine Mountain, Georgia

If anyone is looking for a little getaway, Callaway Gardens is definitely the place to go. They have a lodge, hotel, cottages, condos, and villas (and in the hotel aka Mountain Inn you can take your pets - SugarBaby and SweetPea were thrilled). However you want to spend your stay you'll find something great. The highlight of my stay was the Butterfly Observatory. I actually saw butterflies emerging from their cocoons. It was just incredible to walk around in a large open space and see them flying around you. Unfortunately we went on a cloudy day so they weren't as active as usual, but there were a few rebels out and about. They have plenty of hiking/nature trails. Nature is definitely all around. Of course the gardens weren't in bloom, but everything was still beautiful. Anyway, it was nice and peaceful. Plenty to do and just peaceful enough if you don't want to do anything at all (by the way, they have a spa!)

Am I Really ADHD Or Do I Have Too Much Energy?

1:28 a.m.

I know its been quite some time since I've made a post. However, this New Year has started out to be quite uneventful. I'm taking a couple of classes this semester (which I'm maintaining my "A's" of course) and I went to Callaway Gardens last week (which I will post pictures of soon - I hope). But all in all, everything has been quite calm despite our President thinking giving his first interview as President to an Arab network is better than to the nation that actually ELECTED him (don't take my word for it - read it for yourself - article).

Yet tonight, I cannot sleep. This week has been the first in (I would dare to say) months that I've had insomnia. In November I started working out on a regular basis. This week, I have not. Not because I'm lazy, but because I'm quite sick (the doctor is worried about me - kidding - just a little inside joke). I have some sort of sinusitis and it has me completely thrown off. I don't like being sick. I know its not as if anyone does, but I rarely get sick. And when I do it doesn't make for a good patient. I'm usually cranky and love pity parties. But today I sucked it up, went to the doctor and got a shot that is supposed to make me feel better (hopefully soon).

But all of this has gotten me thinking: Do I really have ADHD or do I just have a lot of pent up energy? The fact of the matter is that even when working out I can't seem to sit still for long. But this week of sickness has me all wired even though I should be resting. I can't seem to sit still for 5 minutes, much less the 15 I'm generally so proud of. I lay in bed and my mind is racing. This isn't abnormal, but this week I can't fall asleep despite it. This week I just lay there. My eye open wide. I'm not even tired. I haven't actually "rested" the entire time I've been sick (maybe the reason I can't get better). But I can't seem to stop. My mind...my body will not rest. Sitting here I feel my eye lids getting heavy, but the moment I crawl back into bed will their light switch automatically be thrown back on, or will my weary bones get some rest? Should I sit here in my chair and try to fall asleep sitting up or do I risk walking back to bed (just to wake myself up, no doubt)?

This has me a bit dumbfounded. I knew the exercise was helping, but until now I didn't know to what extent. I do know the moment I feel better I will be back at the gym...and back to getting some rest!

Night!